Muskaanein jhooti hai.
Look at the waiter. He smiles as he hands me the bill. Hope you enjoyed everything, ma’am. His smile is a shield against rudeness, a toll he pays to keep his job. Look at the couple at the next table. She is smiling as he scrolls through his phone. Her smile says, I am fine. Her eyes say, See me.
Look at the photograph they just posted. There I am, holding a champagne flute I haven’t drunk from, throwing my head back as if the venture capitalist just told the funniest joke in the world. He didn’t. He was explaining how he “almost” invested in a competitor. The smile on my face? A masterpiece of forgery. Painted on with the precision of a liar. Muskaanein Jhooti Hai
The dress will fit.
But the smile? It stayed put. Perfect. Plastic. Hope you enjoyed everything, ma’am
It will fit too.
I have become a cartographer of false joy. I map it onto my lips every morning before the first Zoom call. I drape it over my shoulders like a designer jacket. “Good morning, team! Let’s crush the day!” My voice chirps, a digital bird made of wires and anxiety. Behind the camera, my hands are shaking. The revenue forecast is wrong. Two senior developers just resigned. My father’s medical reports came back this morning. She is smiling as he scrolls through his phone
So I will wipe the mascara that ran an hour ago. I will start the car. I will go home and feed the cat. And tomorrow morning, I will open the closet, pick out a dress, and pick out a smile.
Muskaanein jhooti hai.
It has to.
The smile? That beautiful, crooked, brave, jhoothi smile?
Muskaanein jhooti hai.
Look at the waiter. He smiles as he hands me the bill. Hope you enjoyed everything, ma’am. His smile is a shield against rudeness, a toll he pays to keep his job. Look at the couple at the next table. She is smiling as he scrolls through his phone. Her smile says, I am fine. Her eyes say, See me.
Look at the photograph they just posted. There I am, holding a champagne flute I haven’t drunk from, throwing my head back as if the venture capitalist just told the funniest joke in the world. He didn’t. He was explaining how he “almost” invested in a competitor. The smile on my face? A masterpiece of forgery. Painted on with the precision of a liar.
The dress will fit.
But the smile? It stayed put. Perfect. Plastic.
It will fit too.
I have become a cartographer of false joy. I map it onto my lips every morning before the first Zoom call. I drape it over my shoulders like a designer jacket. “Good morning, team! Let’s crush the day!” My voice chirps, a digital bird made of wires and anxiety. Behind the camera, my hands are shaking. The revenue forecast is wrong. Two senior developers just resigned. My father’s medical reports came back this morning.
So I will wipe the mascara that ran an hour ago. I will start the car. I will go home and feed the cat. And tomorrow morning, I will open the closet, pick out a dress, and pick out a smile.
Muskaanein jhooti hai.
It has to.
The smile? That beautiful, crooked, brave, jhoothi smile?