We are told that productivity is piety. That if you aren't optimizing, you are rotting.
Maturity, as it turns out, is not about getting your act together. It is about realizing you were never supposed to have an "act" in the first place. Mature NL - 5130
There is a particular kind of silence that arrives after the children have left, after the promotion that didn’t fix everything, after the divorce papers are signed, or after you finally admit that the life you built feels like a sweater knit for someone else. We are told that productivity is piety
You cannot reach Marker 5130 without dragging the ghost of who you used to be behind you. you are rotting. Maturity